There was a time after the divorce when the nights felt unbearable. I’d lie awake, replaying everything in my mind, questioning what I could’ve done differently. The weight of loneliness and failure pressed down on me, and some days, it felt like I was just going through the motions.
I never thought I’d struggle with depression. As a pastor, I’d counseled others through it, reminding them of God’s promises and faithfulness. But when it hit me, I realized how isolating it could feel. Even though I knew God was with me, there were moments when it was hard to believe it.
What helped me most was being honest, with God, with myself, and with those I trusted. I stopped pretending everything was fine and started pouring out my heart to the Lord. I also leaned on the people who cared about me, like Samantha and kiddo, who reminded me that I wasn’t alone.
Slowly, God began to renew my hope. He didn’t magically erase the pain, but He gave me strength for each day. Through prayer, Scripture, and even counseling, I discovered that depression doesn’t define me, God’s love does.
If you’re struggling, know this: you’re not weak or unfaithful. You’re human. And the God who created you sees your pain and wants to carry you through it.
Prayer
Heavenly Father, thank You for being close to the brokenhearted. When life feels overwhelming, remind me of Your presence and fill me with Your peace. Help me to trust You even in the darkest moments. I give You all honor, all the glory, and all the praise. It’s in Jesus’ name I pray. Amen & Amen.